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In July 2014, as I was working on a Sunday School lesson, I began to look at my life as I never had before. I do not share this to brag but to point how I had been deceived in 1988 to believe I had been saved although I did not believe in my heart that Jesus was my only hope and my salvation. As I mentioned earlier, looking back at that time in my life, there was no evidence of God’s love or grace in my life. I sinned without real consequence and two verses of scripture, For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth (Proverbs 3:12) and He that chastiseth the heathen, shall not he correct? he that teacheth man knowledge, shall not he know? (Psalms 94:10) bear witness to the awful truth that in those years I was not saved. I was not a child of God and had I died, I would have deserved the eternal judgment of the Lake of Fire. God had to bring me to the point where I was no longer willing to continue holding on to the deceit and to simply be honest with myself that until 2006, I was not a child of God. On January 14, 2015, after much prayer and guidance by the Holy Spirit, I shared this with my pastor and felt a great weight leave my shoulders and my soul as I freely admitted what I had already accepted about my past.

What it means for this blog site

After much prayer both before tonight and after, I have decided to leave all the blog entries as they were originally written. At the time they were written, I thought that I was saved back in 2006 and was not ready to admit that I had been deceived into believing I was saved. All blog entries from today forward will share my testimony as I have shared it here. What I experienced between 1988 and 2006 is, unfortunately, what a lot of people experience: And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light. Therefore it is no great thing if his ministers also be transformed as the ministers of righteousness; whose end shall be according to their works (2 Corinthians 11:14-15). Satan had me believing I was saved and was even providing me with what I thought, as a Christian, I should have. On all outward appearances I sounded like a Christian, I acted like a Christian, and even served in various positions as a Christian, yet there was little else.

If you’re not sure about your salvation, the Bible does contain a sure-fire way to understand your own heart if you are completely honest with yourself. Jesus told all that would hear Him: Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them (Matthew 7:15-20). I leave you with these two simple  questions: what type of fruit is your life bearing? Does it show others the way to the Lord or does it hardly resemble the fruits of the Bible?